May 3, 2016

One of my patients this past Monday said life is a gift. He had a reason to be in the hospital, yet, he still had a positive outlook on life. If it were me, I'd be my usual depressed, pessimistic, woe is me kind of self you'd expect in that situation. I'm perfectly healthy and have a lot to be thankful for, yet, it's easier for me to focus on the negative things in life and what I don't like about myself. Maybe that's just human nature and I allow myself to be weak and give in to these feelings. It's a lot more work to be positive and happy. I feel like I owe it to this man to put more effort into making my life happier and positive. It all begins with attitude, I suppose. Today was a good day to start. I got a good nights sleep and got out of bed at a decent time. I did some stuffies, ran some errands, and went for a 4 mile run on the rail trail. Perfect running weather...low 50s and cloudy. I knocked one item off my to do list (scrubbing the mold off my bathroom window) and now I'm updating my life here. I'm fairly certain I'm the only who still uses this blog and I'm totally ok if no one reads it. It's for me. Sometimes I wish I didn't care if I continue this or not, but it's who I am and I'll keep writing until my life gets too hectic for it (very unlikely). It was set up for me as a gift, therefore I'm going to utilize it.

So I could have kept my call Sunday night when I wrote last...the pager never went off but it was nice to somewhat relax and watch the season 6 Walking Dead finale. One less thing to worry about although now we have to wait 6 months (5 months now) to find out who Neegan killed. F**k you, Walking Dead. Peepeepants City.

The second weekend in April, Colin and Katie were here on their annual craft beer VT trip. They came over after I got out of work and we headed to the Worthy Kitchen for craft beer and a delicious burger. We ran into Kelly and I got to meet her new man. They spent the night at my house and headed to a beer event in the morning while I got ready and headed to Launch (a giant bounce complex) in Nashua with Emilee, Jesse, the kids, and friends for Maddy's birthday. I would have just met them at their house afterwards but I was going to Montpelier for the night; plus I haven't been able to go to Maddy's birthday parties the previous 3 years. After the fact, I felt like it was unnecessary for me to go but you just don't know until you do it. Oh well. I got home and really wanted to nap but Dayna and I headed north to meet up with Colin and Katie. We met them at a bar and hung out for a while drinking delicious craft beer and getting drunk then we headed to Positive Pie for dinner for more freakin deliciousness. After dinner, we really wanted a margarita so we tried unsuccessfully to go to the Mexican restaurant we went to last time but they were closed so they directed us to another place upstairs where the unpleasant bartender begrudgingly served us margaritas. At that point, we were toast so we stumbled back to the hotel and crashed after playing Cards Against Humanity. So exhausted on Sunday but it was so much fun. Needless to say, I slept pretty much all day before getting up to go to trivia. The tentative plan is to go to NY for a long weekend in July to hang out and go to a Slightly Stoopid concert.

On the 12th, I went to Milford for the day to surprise Danielle for her birthday. I hung out with Jaime and Madison until she got home from work. We went out for Chinese with some of their friends; I finally got to meet Big Buck (lol) for an extended period of time. He brought his daughter, who is a new nurse. It was nice spending time with them and catching up but I have to admit feeling a little disappointed that Big Buck got a better reception than me when he walked into the restaurant. Oh well, I'm supposed to be more positive and not sweat the small stuff, right? On another note, Madison is getting so tall and grown up! She's almost 10 and turning in to a young lady.

After some tiring weekends, I really needed some down time and solitude. Dayna and I did breakfast the following Saturday and dropped some donations off for the kitten shower at UVHS, but other than that, I stayed home except for trivia Sunday night. The following Saturday night, I went to a Star Wars party at Dr. Niles' house with Sarah. It was a good time and I now know what I'm going to eventually do to my basement...movie theatre. So awesome. Sunday, I spent the day with Simone and Puffles. We went to brunch at the Cantina and got coffee at the java cup. We played with Barbies, went grocery shopping, played outside (by the swamp and at Moody Park) and grilled for dinner. It was a great bonding day.

This past weekend was a long weekend because I took Friday off for a Tribal Seeds concert in Northampton that night. Dayna and I headed down that afternoon after a Starbucks pit stop and met Laura for dinner at the Northampton Brewery. We checked in to our hotel and walked to get ice cream before parting ways. So great catching up with her! The venue was fun and the concert was great as usual, except, this time we didn't get on the tour bus. I'm ok with that, we had our time, now it's time to move on. Almost going on a ghost hunt with a security guard back at the hotel almost made up for it. Too bad it would have been a "liability" sad face. We stopped at Yankee Candle on the way home the next day...that place is huge. Now I can finally say I've been there after driving by it all these years. I went to ctown Saturday night to hang with the Goss' after a lil nap. Face swap apps are hilarious.

So, a couple weeks ago, I got into my car to drive home from work and noticed a big crack across my windshield. Awesome. I finally got around to making a claim and, long story short, come to find out, I have been driving my car uninsured since August. I never renewed my insurance last summer. Am I really that much of a moron? How could I have missed that? Even though they sent mail to my previous address, why wasn't it on my radar. Words cannot describe how angry I am with myself; even a little scared with my stupidity. How am I an adult. What's next? I'll tell you what's next. Shopping for a new insurance company. Between a new policy, an extension after they never heard from me last year, and a new windshield out of pocket, I've shelled out almost 1500 in the past 2 weeks. Thumbs up, moron. It's kind of hard to be positive when you make a huge mistake like that. Fuck.

On that note, taco salad needs to get in my belly. Oh, and it's 1 of 2 nights I allow myself ice cream. Chocolate peanut butter heaven. I haven't said anything about work. Work is fine. Nothing too exciting. What I'm listening to most now: 90's Hip/Hop on Pandora. So great when you need motivation to get up and do something.